Today was Mother's Day. I am not going to lie I didn't have the greatest day. :( Thomas had to work and it's just hard having the kids at church all by myself. Leah has gotten so busy now. I had to take her into the hallway during sacrament meeting so I left the boys on the bench, hoping someone would keep an eye on them. I'm assuming they were okay most the time, but once the meeting was over I went in and they were both balling and no one was helping them. Maybe it was naive of me to leave them, but I thought they would be okay. I'm sure they were most the time, but I guess at the end they thought I left them. I don't know if I was more sad that they were crying, or that no one was helping them or me for that matter. I had all three kids hanging on me and crying and no one helped. It's really not that big of a deal, but it was a teaching moment for me. I hope I can be aware of others and step in and help when needed. I found it ironic that maybe people were rushing to their next classes so they could give the lesson about helping others, but didn't take the time to do it in real life. Ha! I hope I can be aware of those around me and look for ways to help others. The rest of church Leah was just over tired and hungry and everything else. It was a hard next couple of hours... I mostly was in the hallway and I kept thinking "why am I even here", and honestly my only conclusion was "i'm here because it's where I am supposed to be and where my kids need to be". This too shall pass, and one day I will be able to sit through a whole meeting again, and i'll probably miss my kids throwing puffs, or squeeling and pulling on peoples pant legs. haha!
We had a nice dinner and it was nice when Thomas came home to help with the kids. He's such a great Dad!! I don't know what I would do without him!
I am SOOO grateful to be a mom, even though some days are hard! I love my kids more than life itself, they are my light and my joy and my everything. I am so blessed to have such an amazing family!